the honeymoon phase!

brain-ologists (yes, that is their official title) have determined that the honeymoon phase in a relationship can last from six weeks to three years.  in the case of my turbulent and occasionally abusive affair with San Francisco, our honeymoon phase is three and a half years late. if this goes on for three years i may never get out of here...
this city is finally getting cozy. i have people to spend time with. i have fun city events to attend. i am getting to like my job. (i am still broke) but my bank account is no longer in the negative.

today i saw (at the risk of sounding stupidly white) a 'gangster-y' looking guy on the bart who was practicing plies (plee-ays, for those of you not hip to the ballerina beat). 

yesterday i went and saw Jace Everett  play at Hotel Utah (the bar I played MY show at!) and got to talk to him, and gaze lovingly into his eyes. yeah, so he's married. people leave their wives ALL the time! there's a 50% divorce rate in this country! (translation: i have a 50% chance with this guy!...messed up...but TRUE)

tuesday i saw Ryan Gosling play at Bimbo's in his band Dead Man's Bones .  HE by the way, is too pretty. it hurts a little bit. honestly, i just want to hang out with the guy, be his buddy, and make music with him. the show was amazing. the show was a production and they were having so much fun doing it.  not to mention the fact that not only was the opening act a local talent show, but the kids' choir that performed with him was local too! which means he gets local talent for every different city he plays in. and that is just super.
really. what a swell guy...
i HATE when they are cute AND creative AND fun AND famous. irritating.

and now my bathroom is clean and smells like lavender. and a beautiful french boy out there misses me and keeps urging me to visit. and friends keep coming to town. and old awkward acquaintances have become friends. and i feel SO much better.